//The Title of Mom//

When you’re a little girl you have a dream of what you want your
life to be when you grow up. Some girls dream of being actresses or teachers or
lawyers but all I really wanted was to fall in love and become a mom. It’s hard
to believe that I wear that title when I feel like I just walked across the rickety
old stage from my small Christian High School to get my diploma. I mean I still
shop at Forever 21 and I turned the BIG 30 this year (If you ever see an 80
year old lady trying on clothes there one day it most likely will be me.)
 So when my 3 year old Riley calls for me in her sweet little
girl voice this sense of pride wells up in my heart. I get the same feeling
when my wide eyed little guy Cohen says “mama” gosh it just melts me.
I’ve only been a mom for a few years now and it goes without saying it’s the
most rewarding and fulfilling job I’ve ever had and ever will have. 
If you’re a mom you know it’s not easy. It’s hard work and there
are days when you literally lock yourself in the bathroom just for 2 minutes of
sanity and while you’re in there ignoring the banging on the door from those
little ones who literally rely on you to stay alive you realize wow I now know
why so many mom’s take up drinking or start popping xanax. But I wouldn’t
change it for the world.
I know that being a mom has already taught me so many things. The
biggest thing for me has been patience. The most beautiful thing is seeing
their personalities come to life. From the very beginning of Riley’s life she
has always had a very loving and gentle spirit about her. She is very obedient
and wants nothing more than to please whomever she is around. We always tell
her that God gave her a gift of making others feel special. She has such a
compassionate heart for others and she’s only 3.
I always wanted to have two girls close in age because I love that
my sister and I are such great friends. When we found out we were having a boy
we were excited of course, but I was a little scared because I didn’t know how
to be a mom of a little boy. I was used to buying everything in pink (and it is
true girls clothes are so much more fun to buy.) However when Cohen was born
there was an instant bond between him and I. He was my little buddy. 
His personality has been fun to watch as well. He came into the
world with an amazing set of lungs even the Dr. pointed it out to us. He
screams or grunts when he’s trying to communicate. He is all boy and completely
opposite of his tender hearted sensitive sister. Cohen throws things, hits his
sister, and watches out the window saying “vroom vroom” whenever cars
drive by. Cars are his favorite thing. He is strong willed and pushes the
limits as close as he can. He is a spunky and hilarious little guy constantly
making us laugh. 
  No one can make Cohen laugh that deep belly laugh like his
big sister. I love that my kids already have a really unique bond with each
other and I pray that it only grows stronger. Watching them play together makes
my heart so full that I literally hold back tears. Or when Riley says things
like “Mom I love you so much I can hardly breathe.” Those are the
moments that don’t compare to anything else in this world.

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3 Comments

  1. September 3, 2013 / 8:12 pm

    Fawn, I love your honesty about motherhood. I was the same little girl….all I wanted was to be a mommy and my dream has come true. Although it isn't exactly what I thought it would be, but I wouldn't change it for the world! Thanks for being real about motherhood and not making it seem as though everything is roses and rainbows all the time…it is so refreshing!

    Debbie Krusemark 🙂

  2. September 4, 2013 / 1:16 am

    "I can hardly breathe!" OMG! That is the sweetest thing! Being a mom is the best & it's insane 🙂 Great post!

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