Friday Favorite// “Say Something.”//

Another week in October is down so that means its time for Friday Favorites. This week I am only sharing one favorite because its a pretty amazing post. 
I’ve always loved the song “Say Something” by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera. It is one of those songs that moves your soul. When I came across the post “Say Something. Please for the sake of all that is holy, say something.”  from Amber at Mr. Thomas & Me, Wow all I can say is “WOW!”  See for yourself below. AMAZING POST!!!! Thanks Amber for sharing.

Monday, October 6, 2014

say something. please for the sake of all that is holy, say something.

Like all the comments on the YouTube video, I thought “Say Something” was all about breaking up. That is, until I actually watched, and wept over the old couple living out the till death do us part vow. And I realized, it’s such a big song, with such a huge statement, so much more than a break-up (though it works there too). 
I kept playing the song on my way to work and raising not only my voice to sing along off tune, but also my hands. Lifting them in a sort of messy, exhausted worship of Him. Lifting them like I don’t do in church or anywhere else because I’m not in that easy part of faith right now. Turns out Christian bands don’t have a monopoly on soul-shaking, faith-revealing lyrics.

My post about the accidental worship song A Great Big World & Christina Aguilera sing (there are many others who do it justice). Because, there’s dark, heavy words in here and it jams up my ability to sew together a beautiful introduction, here it is. 

I encourage you to play the song while you read and then a million times thereafter. 
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Say something, I’m giving up on you. | I’ll be the one if you want me to. 
God, do you hear me? Please hear me. Should I scream? Chant? Just never stop. Do I write it down? Immortalize it everywhere? I need you to hear me God. Deeply need you to hear me. I want to move, to understand, to hold out, but your silence is eerie, terrifying, making me feel forgotten. Did my prayers slip through the cracks God? 
Any where I would have followed you | Say something I’m giving up on you. 

You take care of things in the bible God. You part seas, you dry floods, you bless in barrenness. Where are you now, God? I’ve pleaded for your mercy, for your leading, for you to do things for me. Faith small as a mustard seed can move mountains. I don’t need a mountain moved, just a little answer, just a date, a time, a limit. That’s it God. All I need is to hear you, to know you’re paying attention. Just a little answer. 
And I am feeling so small | It was over my head | I know nothing at all. 

It’s not about me, is it? It’s about you. All about you. I’m frustrated, sad, feeling like giving up, but that’s all about me, not a lick about you. It’s not about your immense strength, your undeterred patience, your willingness to carry me, to keep me keeping on, to say something just when I’ve grown despondent and desperate. You don’t change because I do, you don’t bend under the weight of my weariness, you don’t fluctuate with my array of emotions. 

And I will stumble and fall | I’m still learning to love | Just starting to crawl. 

You’ve mastered this craft. This growing, learning, loving. You created it, you set the stage, provided the potential, molded the game. And I, I am hardly moving, just barely progressing, but you don’t mind. You see those millimeters I’ve managed to pass in the last day and that’s enough for you. You cherish the sheer exhaustion I have from the exertion despite a nearly invisible shift. I need your encouragement and cheering. Wave my banner high God. Help me to see it. 
Say something I’m giving up on you. | I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you. 
Any where I would have followed you | Say something I’m giving up on you. 

How is it that you aren’t giving up on me? This disease, it shakes my faith in all the wrong ways. It makes me mad, so deeply and darkly mad at you. But you don’t mind. You hear my threats and you see the desperation and you pat me on the back. In the midst of sobs, you rub my shuddering shoulders and sing over me. You hum -constant, comforting- as your warm presence floods all five of my senses. You know I’m not really, truly mad at you. No, I’m mad at me.
And I will swallow my pride | You’re the one that I love | And I’m saying good-bye. 

I’m saying good-bye, not to you, but to me. To my fleshy dependence on my judgment, to my desire to know your timing, your purpose, to require knowledge without space for faith. I’m kissing my journey to be the best, the whole package, the quintessential woman good-bye, and welcoming a humble living out of my deep dependence and bottomless love for you. I’m admitting I don’t know, exposing my wounds, and letting hope heal. 
Say something I’m giving up on you. | I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you. 
Any where I would have followed you | Say something I’m giving up on you. 

God, say something, anything. Say you’re here, say you’re fixing things, say you’ve got this all under control. God, say it because I’ve given up on my efforts and answers. Say something, God, because you can, because you offer beginnings and you will bring ends, because you are. Say something. 

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6 Comments

  1. October 10, 2014 / 3:11 pm

    Somehow I missed this post from Amber, but every post that girl writes is pure gold. A different one of hers made my list too!

  2. October 10, 2014 / 9:42 pm

    She is so great. I loved this post! Thanks for stopping by:)

  3. October 12, 2014 / 3:25 am

    This was on my list, too. Totally cried while reading it! Love Amber's heart for the Lord. She is beauty!

  4. October 13, 2014 / 7:04 pm

    Amy I saw it on your list:) Such a great post. I love it!

  5. October 14, 2014 / 1:03 am

    Thanks for linking up! This post is new to me, but I love her perspective. 🙂

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