//UNGLUED// Making Wise Choices in the Midst of Raw Emotions//

One of the huge blessings in my life is
being a part of a group of AMAZING ladies in a bible study. Right now we are
doing the “Unglued” study by Lysa TerKeurst . You guys she is such a breath of fresh
air!  Go follow her on all the social medai sites. She will bless your heart and
challenge you every day.
As we are diving into week two of the
study, let me tell you it hit home with me. The study is about when we come
unglued with our emotions and how to handle those situations with godly honesty
(not exploding or stuffing our feelings) with humility, truth, and Jesus. All I
have to say is its pretty relevant in my life right now.
I like to think of myself as someone who
is not “easily offended” but who am I kidding, whether I want to
admit it or not when a snarky comment is made in person or via social media or
a friend stops “unfollowing” me on instagram or facebook. It hurts.
Why? Because deep down inside we care about what other people think about us.
We want to be liked by people. We want to be encouraged not put down. We want
to be understood and accepted. We don’t want to be judged. We want to be loved.
As I was going over some recent
incidents that had me “unglued” I was upset. Not with the people or
the incidents so much but with myself. Why do  I let these things bother
me? Why do I care? Being someone who runs their business via social media on a
public platform you really need some thick skin because people won’t like what
your about or what you stand for. As I work in the health and fitness industry
I feel I get misunderstood a lot. My passion isn’t to be focused on a number on
the scale or looking a certain way. NEWSFLASH it’s pretty obvious I am not a
size zero, I am not tall and thin with the body of a super model. I am a regular
mama trying to promote a healthy lifestyle for me and my family. I love to
encourage women to feel confident in who they are no matter what size skinny
jeans they wear or what they look like. I don’t promote vanity I promote love. I am not judging others. Being a fitnss coach is my ministry. Sure we all want to look good but what I do for a living goes
way beyond that. Being and feeling misunderstood IS the worst feeling in the
world to me.
As I started filling out day one of the
study guide. I found myself sobbing. Yeah sobbing (thank God my husband was at
a business meeting and my kids were in bed) This is what made me cry. This is
what also brought such peace and relief. This is what made my soul feel
understood.
“The name Peter means
“rock,” but Peter’s given name was Simon, which means
“shifty.” According to John’s gospel, the first thing Jesus does when
He meets Simon is rename him (John 1:42). Peter was shall we say an interesting
disciple. The guy had some major issues (don’t we all). I mean he cut off a man’s
ear when they came to arrest Jesus and then he turns around and denies Jesus 3
times. I’d say shifty was a pretty good name for him, but Jesus saw him as a
ROCK not shifty. BEAUTIFUL. On a side note I totally wonder if we will get new names in
heaven. I kind of think we will since Jesus renames people a lot. I can’t wait
to know what mine is. How the king sees me.
Lysa then asks you to imagine “You
are meeting Jesus for the first time and you hear Him say something like this:
I see you. I know who you are right now, and I know the deeper truth about who
you really are.”  
What thoughts or emotions come to mind
as you imagine Jesus speaking these words to you?
I see you…
I know who you are right now…
I know the deeper truth about who you
really are…
Enter the flood gates of my tears.
Overwhlemed by the presence of Jesus in my bedroom. Overwhelmed by His love for
me. Now this next part I am sharing is super vulnerable, but its the prayer we
write out at the end and this is what came to my heart. I share because I am
sure a lot of you have felt the same as me and I hope this resignates with you.
GUIDED PRAYER:
“Lord thank You for seeing me. I am
so grateful that You know me even better than I know myself. I am struggling
right now with some self-defeating labels. I especially feel stuck with…
Feeling judged based on how I look,
dress, mother, my work in the health and fitness industry, being a pastors
wife, etc. I feel really misunderstood and labeled before people know my heart.
I put up walls. I beat myself up. I feel guilty. I feel unliked, unwanted. I feel like people see me not as who I am.
“God, soften my heart. I know I
need to surrender who I am right now so You can chisel me into my true self,
the person You made me to be. Amen”
xoxo
Fawn

Grateful Heart w/ Ember Grey

9 Comments

  1. February 11, 2015 / 1:39 am

    Um, I'm crying over here. This is so powerful, such a beautiful reminder – one I needed. I have often times wondered if we'll get new names when we get to Heaven, too πŸ™‚ Thank you so much for introducing me to Lysa. I can't wait to start following, reading, etc.

  2. February 11, 2015 / 5:03 am

    This is just beautiful, Fawn…I just thank God that HE knows who I really am because sometimes I don't know myself. I know who I want to be, or who I think I ought to be, or who might be stuck in the trenches at the moment…but I feel like He knows my bigger purpose and someday hopefully He will share it with me and I'll be like the brightest lightbulb switching on at that moment…!

  3. February 13, 2015 / 3:54 pm

    Such a beautiful post! Thanks for sharing this, it really spoke to my heart. I'm so glad he sees through all our walls to the person we really are and even though sometimes I want to hide those places from him because I'm embarrassed or ashamed that I've let him down. I'm so thankful he is always gracious and forgiving. πŸ™‚

  4. February 13, 2015 / 7:21 pm

    so beautiful… i have tears in my eyes. i can't wait to see what he names me! πŸ™‚ such an inspiration- keep doing what you're doing and keep your head up. you are doing amazing. β™₯

  5. February 13, 2015 / 7:46 pm

    Thanks so much @Emily @ Ember Grey. That means more than you know. She is an amazing woman you will love her.

  6. February 13, 2015 / 7:47 pm

    @TheAdventuresofBugandBoo thank you so much. I feel the same way. I am so thankful that He loves us just as we are and sees the real us who we are meant to be.

  7. February 13, 2015 / 7:49 pm

    Me too @Faith Golden we have such an Amazing Savior! Thankful for His love for us no matter what. Thank you for your kind words.

  8. February 13, 2015 / 7:49 pm

    Thank you so much @Nelle Monaco. Wont it be so great to see what He names us. I can't wait.

  9. Kelsey Loring
    February 14, 2015 / 1:42 pm

    I really enjoyed this post! Thanks for the encouragement. It is silly to me how one day something doesn't bother me and the next day that same thing unravels (or unglues) me. So great to have a heavenly perspective….and I am totally checking out that book!

    Kelsey

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